I know I said that from now on I'm not going to worry about my looks... and so far it's worked and I haven't.. but, when someone says straight to your face; your face has changed.. gotten a lot rounder.. that you looked good before, but now you look shit. This... does not help. I know that I am not perfect... and that I am no beauty... but it still hurts a hell of a lot to have something like that shoved in your face.
Ashamed.. I now sit here with tears silently running down my puffy cheeks. As if I don't stress enough about superficial things... Now I'm embarrassed that I even let myself be affected by comments as these, but how can they not when one is in a precious state as it is. I've had a precious secret shared between two people, leaked out to pretty much everyone... Now I'm too shy to even show my face in public...It's a secret everyone goes through as they get older.. it's something I had wanted to keep private.. but I guess that want has gone to waste now. It's happened though.. and I guess there's nothing I can do about it..so what's the use in crying over spilt milk ay?
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I wish so much that people realized the power of their words.
ReplyDeleteYou have a choice here Inez. You can choose to believe what someone else tells you about yourself, or you can choose to believe what you already know. That you are a beautiful happy girl with an entire future to look forward to. Who cares what people think when you know what you know. We'll never be able to please everyone (and it doesn't matter).
Don't cry or be sad any more okay? You get to choose how you want to live your life. Be Happy!
love,
lori
inez...
ReplyDeletethe secret firstly...I promise you that what they know is not the full story,believe me when I say this. You are still pure in my eyes man, at times yes harsh words are cast across at you but a reaction or not its a hurt and healing is the process that is BY FAR the greatest reward, you mind, body and soul regnerates and everything is brighter once you love what you offer yourself...stick in their girl Im sure your sunshine will come soon.
Lori Ann, you truly are the best.. those are very wise words spoken.. thanks for the comment... means a lot :) x
ReplyDeleteThanks Cam... il speak to u tomorrow..x
SPEAK TO ME WOMAN!!!!coz i knwo your exam is done...hope it was good....
ReplyDeleteoooh post the pics on here, wouldnt that be a fab idea???
Well.. I haven't been able to get you on your own yet.. wait till next week.. woohoo.. exam over :)
ReplyDeleteHmm.. that is quite the idea... i'll go over it in my mind whether my work is good enough to be put on here until I get the pics :p x