Macabre

It's hard, when you get hit with a shock realization. When something hits so close to home that you really just, don't know how to react, you're so lost for words that only you're choking sobs fill the silence. You feel as if you're trapped between worlds, not sure which direction to take. You've never felt so alone.

As you walk down that silent road, you contemplate the future, and how you will conquer it by yourself. You ponder those you thought you had, and grieve when you think about how much you had given. You feel like a freak, unappreciated, mental. You wish you could be the first priority, that for once, you could be the world to someone. You wish you weren't so alone.

Your head swims in an void of lost dreams, a current of insanity. You try to keep grounded, while you're feet feel like taking off into space. Nothing seems to distract you, nothing but your mind, can occupy you. Music..moving images.. text... for once, it all seems so worthless. You welcome emptiness... anything, just not to feel so fucked up anymore. Lost in a pit of self despair, you sit and rot, while you try to heal enough to pull yourself out of this darkened well.

Suddenly, you feel so old, your youth gone down the drain, ceasing to return. Yet, you feel like a little child, a hopeless puppy, so vulnerable, caught up in the sharp jaws of harsh reality. You wonder, if you'll ever be happy again,